Finding Freedom in Release

So i was very stressed out just a while ago, cus my targets are piling up and mom asked me to get something from the market, i didnt say anything to her but i lost my mind out of stress.

but then it got me thinking and introspecting, WHY am i losing my mind? what is it on the break days, that keeps me sane?

Turns out, the thing which is making me lose my mind is me, myself.

I try to over control things, my time, my schedule.

I need to understand one thing: I need not be perfect, I just need to be good enough, consistent, and kind.

I need to start being more patient. I need to ingrain in my mind that consistency overpowers intensity every single time. I need to let go more often.

I understood the key:

1. No desperation about anything.
2. No trying to over-control anything
3. Value system to determine priority 

It's so ironical, the more I try to control things, control my schedule, forgetting my value system, forgetting my purpose, forgetting kindness, being overly desperate about my daily targets, THE MORE I END UP STRESSED AND THE LESS I ACHIEVE THAT DAY.

the cycle ends here. 

Here's what I exactly thought (and wrote)